6 weeks in

Well i've now been a mummy for over 6 weeks, it has been stressful but also rewarding as i'm getting a few smiles from my little man now. Each day you see the changes, he is more alert and finding objects more interesting.

I'm finding my little man rather difficult at the moment because he tends to fight sleep and has alot of wind so some days it's constant crying and with myself also being deprived sleep it's not easy to keep sane. I get my husband to watch him for an hour in the evening while I nip out and do something like the food shop as it makes me feel normal again which does the world of good as it gives me the energy to fight through another day.

I can't help looking at the little fella sometimes and thinking he's mine with a smile on my face and feeling rather proud.

It's a Boy

It has been a while since my last post but baby was over due by exactly a week and I had a horrendous 30 hours plus of labour. It all kicked off early on 15th April but I didn't get a hospital room until 6pm that night as no beds were available and everything that could happen did, the pain was awful and to top it the newly qualified midwife kept panicing because she kept losing baby's heart beat so other's kept coming in to examine me which every time made me bleed even more, i'm sure it was because I was so uncomfortable had to move so it moved the monitor. I had high blood pressure, I had to have fluids pumped into me and that was a chore in itself as the trainee dr punched holes in my arm to find a vein when she should have put it in my hand. Four times they had to use a Catheter - ouch! Baby was found to be back to back and was not lowering into the birth canal so I had to have contractions intensified to an unbearable level in the end after having Pethidine, Gas and Air they gave an Epidural at about 11am on 16th but as baby still would not move they said it may result in a C-section if a vontouse or forcepts didn't work, so off I went to theatre with about 10 people all trying to get the baby out he finally did with forcepts at 12.39pm and the shocker being a baby boy as we had been told we were having a girl at the 20 week scan.
It was a long and memorable labour that I will be reluctant to do again. The first week was also very hard with about 5/6 hours sleep for the whole week and combining the after pain of stitches and breast feeding it hasn't been easy.

He is now 3 weeks old so it has become easier and I feel slightly more human with having a bit more sleep but the feeding is out of control some days you feel like a milking machine and cannot do anythin else it certainly is a big life change, but I wouldn't change it as we have some fun times ahead. I do look at pregnant women differently now as I used to feel jealous as I wanted a bump but now I think poor you having to go through labour.

Over Due

Well the big due date has come and gone this is the 3rd day over and baby must find it extremly comfortable in my belly. I guess I should just make the most of it for now but I just feel like i'm waiting for this big thing to happen then each day and night runs into each other with no change. I've been reading up on what can help trigger labour so tried a hot curry on the due date which just gave me a bloated stomach i've walked and walked over the last few weeks so that doesn't help. It's all probably rubbish anyway as only baby decides but it still makes you want to try things, i've heard cutting the grass, eating pineapple or reflexology helps. I think I want it to start naturally before Saturday as the midwife said she will visit me and may do a stretch and sweep which can start things off but i'd rather she didn't but it is more effective at week 41. Maybe I just need to relax a little more and go with the flow but my god I can't wait to have a cold glass of wine.

5 days until due date

Wow 39 weeks gone the time has suddenly accelerated especially since finishig work two weeks ago but oh it's been nice not having to get up at a silly hour and drive half an hour to work, I could get used to this although resting so much and eating what I like would eventually turn me into an over eating fat slob so I think I will treasure these last few days before the big change of life i've been waiting for happens. Just 5 days until due date but people are guessing that baby will decide to arrive on Sunday 10th instead (1 day over due) I think thursday 7th for some reason but I guess i'll be finding out at some point in the next week or two. It is a strange feeling as I really do not know how to feel about the whole thing i've had excited pangs, the very scared of labour feeling and during the weekend I kept having doubts and questioning why did I want this - apprently this is normal but I want the excited feeling back, which is hard when you feel tired, heavy, uncomfortable, irritable, angry, fat and worried with every ache and pain that happens. I really didn't expect all the body changes and moods it's a pretty rough ride pregnancy but in a few days hopefully that will be forgotten when I hold and see my baby for the first time.

38 weeks & 1 day

Last week was my first week off work which was a nice sigh of relief not having to get up early. I still ended up doing chores around the house but as the week went on I seemed to get very very tired which has made me nap (that sounds old). Thursday evening I started to get twinges in my left side and lower belly which scared me as I thought something was about to start but it dwindled until Friday morning but still nothing to report on so I'm not feeling as scared. Most of Sunday night and this morning I have had a belly ache feeling so haven't been able to sleep very well plus to add to it i've had awful heart burn, but baby is very active and i've heard movements decrease before labour starts. It's going to happen some day soon maybe in the next 2 weeks if i'm lucky so i've gotta be prepared.

37 weeks

Oh my only 3 weeks until due date, i'm having strange dreams I dreamt I had the baby early and it was a boy (we've been told it's a girl) plus celebs keep popping in to wish me well - maybe I watch too much tv.

Finished work on Friday which was a relief but now i'm wondering if i'll get lonely these next few weeks before baby is born - i'm sure it is just nerves towards all the changes that will be happening as i've been longing for the rest. Moods are up and down again one minute i'm happy and excited the next I feel sad and angry - what is going on.

Baby is still very active in my belly which is becoming more and more uncomfortable as well as Braxton Hicks they are happening all the time and make it hard to catch your breathe. I also keep thinking of the birth and if I should consider the water pool or not, I really don't know what to do.

Not long now and at 37 weeks i'm classed as full term so it could be any day from now OMG!

36 Weeks & 4 days

I'm feeling heavier than ever now which is a struggle. I saw the midwife yesterday and my bump measures as it should and baby's head is down but not engaged as yet, heartbeat fine, my blood results fine as is blood pressure, so all looking good.

My last week at work and must say it's been a stressful and tiring one as found it harder to get up in the morning maybe because I haven't had much sleep. The 30 minute drive to work has been a nightmare so i've been late everyday this week due to road works plus the day is long and it has been so uncomfortable sitting the whole day but the end is near as just one more full day to get through.