Wednesday, 4 April 2012

First of Many

Oh my what a day I really thought I could be strong. I held it together as I left the house this morning as Ollie waved goodbye but it was so hard to hold back the tears. Once I got to work I felt okay...I can do this I told myself but then after a one to one with the manager talking about the last few days I started to well up aaggghh no I didn't want to do this.
I composed myself and I was fine until lunch time when I called home to check in and that was me well and truly gone - I can't do this I said to hubby it feels so wrong but I know I have to as I am the one with the job and have to do it for our little family.

Oh why does it have to be so hard.

I got through the rest of the day with no tears but as soon as 5pm hit I was out as I wanted a cuddle from little man.

Now just got to do it all again tomorrow, I do hope it gets easier.

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