The last few weeks though I have lost all motivation I was steadily losing 1-2lb a week by walking lots, eating less and if I had anything bad I would share it. Yesterday it hit me that I have to stop eating so much rubbish as I'm feeling the pounds coming back on and I'm feeling so sluggish. I can eat a bag of sweets or a big bar of chocolate most days or if like the other day I ate a whole pack of Oreo biscuits. What the hell am I doing that's over 500 cals alone.
I keep thinking why and when am I doing this and it does tie in when I'm extremely stressed with Ollie's behaviour. I at times get so angry inside I escape to the kitchen on the look out for anything bad I can get my hands on to calm me down and most of the time I'm not even hungry so I guess I'm comfort eating but if I carry on I'm going to get huge and I defiantly will not be happy with myself then.
After reading a post yesterday on bingeing it actually made me feel better its not just me and it can be linked to stress or even depression.
I'm not alone so today I have started using Myfitnesspal again as it logs everything I eat or any exercise I do to keep track, I did this before and it does help as you become more concious of what you eat.
New day and new me (hopefully) I've already struggled as Ollie has been very difficult this morning so I've been so tempted to eat but I haven't given in. I hope I can carry on with the same attitude today.
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