I now have two and it has been one of the most stressful periods of my life so far.
My eldest son Ollie was planned and didn't arrive for some time after wanting him so much for a few years but once he was here it hit me like a ton of bricks my life had changed and he has been hard work from day one including pregnancy and his birth. At times now he can be so lovely especially when he's on his own but with his brother and sometimes other kids he is awful and unbearable to be around. I hate saying that but I have to escape from him from time to time as he just makes me want to explode.
My youngest son wasn't planned but was the opposite to Ollie he was so much more chilled out and actually slept. I even found breast feeding easier, calmer and I was less stressed. By 7 months he started to get harder as he was crawling but still easier than Ollie but now he is 1 1/2years and has become increasingly naughty maybe through watching his brother. He hits, throws, shouts and bangs everything. I even had a toy car thrown in my face the other day.
The two together can be your worst nightmare both shouting, screaming and now fighting because they want the same thing but I must admit it normally is Ollie that causes the chaos. When they are separated its bliss but I can't keep doing that all the time as they need to learn to tolerate each other.
I hoped I would enjoy motherhood and being at home with the kids as I longed for it for so long but now I'm wishing time away so I can get myself back again.
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