Had Enough

Feeling little bit.......glum. Thinking back to the past and mistakes made. Like in 2006 we pulled out of a two bed flat that recently I keep thinking about and wished we had have gone ahead with it as we may have been much better off now. 

2007 we bought the house we are in now which has been an utter nightmare ever since and can't get out of it. 

When we got the keys and I walked into the house for the first time I wanted to cry as it was left in such a state and just thought 'what have we done'. At that point we didn't know the half of what was to come. Noisy neighbours actually let's say inconsiderate noisy neighbours at silly hours in the morning. I don't think I've had a decent nights sleep since moving into the house. I just want the nightmare to end as the stress and lack of sleep is taking its toll. 

Also the town we live in is depressing as the majority of the families live off benefits and will probably never get off their butts to work, I can't stand lazy people and people that have no respect for others. I've always worked and now we struggle to pay for a house we hate being in and are surrounded by weed smoking, lazy morons who have probably never stepped out of the town. I may sound snobby but I don't want my kids to grow up here and mix with these people who have no ambition in life other than to get drunk, high and laid.

I WANT OUT....but how?

No equity, no savings :(

 

Sleep Regression

I'm into my third or forth week of hardly any sleep (cant remember as seems like forever) due to Joel waking up several times in the night. He used to be an easy baby up until 7 months old then it all changed.

At the very point he hit 7 months he started to crawl, followed by pulling himself up to his knees and now recently to his feet. With this he's become very grumpy and fussy.

After last night I managed a full hour and half sleep before Joel woke up at 11.55pm I thought I'd have at least until 2am like the previous night. I tried to settle by rocking him, dummy and water but nothing would settle him so I took him downstairs as I didn't want him waking Ollie which is becoming a regular thing now and gave him milk which did the trick until 3.20am. Then it started all over again.

The health visitor said not to give milk during the night but if its the only thing that works what else are you to do let him scream the house down and get no sleep at all. I don't think so.

Sweet Innocent Boy

Anyway I've been reading up about 8 month olds waking up 3-10 times a night and apparently it's all normal as between 8, 9 and 10 months all babies go through sleep regression due to a developing brain so as they have so much activity going on it stops them sleeping soundly like when adults have a big event the next day it stops us sleeping. According to what I read it can last between 3 to 6 weeks so I guess at least I'm some way through it now. 

Normally this sleep regression stage is worse than when it happens at 4 months as they are also teething. 

I just want it to be over with now as I'm just too tired I can't cope with anymore sleepless nights especially when I also have a 2 year old to look after. My patience has gone out the window completely and I am very ratty.

30 weeks plus 3 days

OMG I am so so tired, I can't seem to sleep through at night as I'm uncomfortable. I can't sleep in my bed without getting achy hips plus I'm stuffy so find it hard to breathe. I've ended up sleeping on the sofa surrounding myself with pillows.

In my thirtieth week I am aches and pains, exhausted, moody, heavy and still expanding, can't walk too much or far otherwise I feel like the baby will just fall out with the pressure I have combined with sciatica, swollen feet and weak knees.

To top it off I still have just under five weeks of full time work which adds to the exhaustion and irritation, while coping with Braxton hicks (so uncomfortable) when trying to concentrate on work and trying hard to be nice to others when you feel pants.

What an experience women have to go through, has anyone actually enjoyed pregnancy?

It's hard going so I do wonder if women feel the same or do some have it harder than others. I'd love to know how you feel or felt during pregnancy, please leave your comments.

Why Does It Have To Be So Difficult

Little man is being very difficult at the moment, in the day he moans constantly which is so draining and at night he is so active it can be 11pm before we actually get him to sleep. I just don't know what to do half the time.
We have always had problems with him sleeping but at one years old you'd think that would be behind us. He is so unpredictable, for a few weeks he started to go to bed by 8.30-9pm which was amazing as we actually had a couple hours of mummy and daddy wind down time and he sometimes slept through until 7.30-8am which was a dream but since he's been Ill at easter we are lucky to get him in his cot by 10pm it's so stressful especially as you get rudely awaken by either a crying Ollie or noisy neighbours at stupid times in the morning.

I'm exhausted especially now I'm back at work. When I get home mummy mode has to switch on but in the evenings and at weekends I just want to sleep but I can't so I end up being very grouchy and snappy. I hope things change as I don't know how I can carry on like this.

I never imagined that being a mummy would be so difficult.