When Did Life Get Like This

Stress, stressed, ultimate stress head, this is me lately and I have no clue how to snap out of it. Today I have felt it badly and shouted at kids at the top of my voice until I actually felt dizzy. At the weekend it actually reduced me to tears. 

When did it start? 

Well I've kinda always had it, I guess most people do but nothing like it is now and I can only put it down to having children. 

Recent months have been hard as I feel so lost and need something myself to focus on otherwise my daily routine as I see it is me as a SLAVE. I get dragged out of bed being told change my bum, get me dressed, make me breakfast. Then the whole day goes on like this, fix this, I want a drink, I want a biscuit, I'm hungry etc etc. 

Still even at the ages they are I cannot go to the toilet in peace, if I have a shower I get peeped at or toys thrown in with me. 

If I sit down both clamper over me often spilling my drink on me. Meal times they are there staring at my plate and putting grubby hands all over my food.

I have now managed to get 3 hours on a Tuesday to me but I catch myself cleaning and still tidying up after kids. Yesterday I did go for a jog to release stress but it's back today. As said I shouted at the top of my voice because I am not listened to just laughed at and mocked. I realise these are kids are only 2 and nearly 4 but my god how they can really push you to the limits. 

At the moment I really can't wait for this time in my life to be over with its awful to say but I can't take much more of the stress I hate being this person I really do and I hate it even more that I really wanted this so why can't I enjoy it. As I write this one child thinks it funny to bang the safety gate continuously while the other encourages it. Urgh! How did life really get to this. It really isn't any fun. 

Wow Dress

 

Peacocks have one dress in two patterns. For just £2.99 wow may get both. Amazing value. 

Which do you prefer? Floral print or Palm print.

I love both but only managed to get the palm print as the shopping basket wouldn't add the other one but could be because out of stock already. 

New Start Follow Up

Monday I decided I will continue with Avon alittle longer and re-canvass any areas I've not been back to. I've tried to get in contact with an area manager but that's proving difficult. 

Kelly's Box I would like to sell off all the accessories and just sell handmade products as that is where I started so will focus on my Etsy shop once I get time and also a website.

Tuesday I started back on my weight watchers tracking. I'm also trying this detox for a bit of oomph! As I sure need it. 

First day went well just used all my 26 pro points and gained 8 pro points with walking. To really motivate myself I re-measured myself and took belly photos eek! How disgusting are these. 

I'm classed as overweight with these measurements: 

Hips 40"

Waist 35"

Belly 41"

Thigh 20"

Bust 39"

I'm not sure on my current weight but on 23.02.15 I weighed 11st 4lb. So 12lb to get to my Goal weight again and 18lb to reach ideal weight. Got to undo my mess. 

I have been looking at jobs and am updating my CV as I would like to go to an open day for Nationwide and hope they do flexi working hours while the boys aren't at school. 

Few positives to start me off :)

New Start

Right I'm now 34 as from 12th March so now is the time to make changes. I've been feeling alittle stuck in a rut the past few weeks so I need to motivate myself in making changes to make myself a happier more content person.

1.  I need to kick myself and lose the stone I have put on after all that hard work last year I cannot go backwards. 
2. I'm not really enjoying being at home so I need to decide what I am going to do from now. Choices: Re-train in something ready for when Ollie goes to school or Look for something part-time to keep my sanity for now and a little extra cash. 
3. Decide on what to do with my page Kelly's Box
4. Decide if I continue with Avon - Kelly's Beauty Box
5. Start exercising again. 
6. Find a passion 
7. Make an effort to meet new people.

That's a few to get me started I think, no.1 is a biggy as when I'm at a better weight I feel better about myself. I have come to a point that my clothes are feeling tighter, which makes me feel rubbish. I also need a new challenge as I'm so bored doing the same things at home chores are so dull and I've also come to a point I really don't want to play with kid toys anymore I need adult company and conversation.
I need something new to get my teeth into.

Half Price Sale At Kelly's Box

I'm having a big sale over at Kelly's Box, Scarves, Clutch Bags and Statement Necklaces all half price.

I'm having a clearout of all accessories so I can concentrate on my handmade items. That's what I originally wanted when I started Kelly's Box but got side tracked as I love accessories and thought it would be a good business move but it's taken over the handmade creativity.
 


Check Out all the wonderful accessories at
Kelly's Box at crazy prices

Supermarket Sale Bargains

Asda have a sale again yay! Love Asda clothes so bagged a biker jacket from £30 to £15. Couple of tops £6 from £12. And few little kids tops at £2 each. 

I got the striped blue and white top with necklace but couldn't decide on the red. 

I love the look of the heart dress which has been reduced to £12 but it looks awful on me. 

Loads of great offers at this sale but got to be lucky to find your size. For ages I wondered wether to by a dotty top which was £8 and I found it reduced to £4 and only two left in my size ha!

Love bargains