Keep Eating

What the hell is happening to me I keep wanting bad food. Yesterday I craved a kit Kat but had 3 of them then wanted crisps and ended up eating 4 packets. Last night I munched on half an Easter egg with hubby. Today it's wispas I've had 4 eek! 

I can see in my face the weight gain. My stomach and tops of legs. I can't believe I've done this after all that hard work I'm just gaining lbs. I'm so unmotivated I'm just at a stand still I'm so unsure what to do next. 

I wish I could stop craving bad food as I'm tired, moody and feel terrible. 

Stressed or Mess

Oh my god the past few weeks have been my most stressful yet, kids, family, weight and basically me. 

I'm struggling with being at home it's fine with the younger son but my older son Ollie is too much he is 3 (4 in April) but it's like he's a teenager already he chats back at me, refuses to do things, hits, throws and bangs doors. He does not listen to a word I say my threats of taking toys or having no treats are just laughed at. Just had enough of it, I can't seem to cope as I just end up shouting louder and louder my neighbours must think I'm terrible, It's actually embarrassing.

I've got to the stage I can't even bare to be around him but I've had other stuff going on with me with coming off medication and going on a new contraceptive pill, having my first period since April 2012 so I think my hormones have gone into overdrive. I actually think I'm starting to see the stress signs in my face I look awful - Tired and haggard. My weight is creeping up after months of being so good. I'm a mess and I'm not sure what to do about it. 

Any advice would be appreciated. I need motivation, support network and some umph!  

Red Nose Day

Love Red Nose Day which is on 13th March this year. I always remember it at school as my birthday is 12th so almost always we had a mufty day on my birthday and other fun things.

 
I always tried to get my work involved aswell as its fun whilst making money for charity. 

Even though I'm at home I still like to do something so this year I'm joining in with the kids. At some point I will let them loose with my make up and make my face funny for money eek! May regret that one. 

We have our noses and car air freshener 

Today I have been inspired by the British  Bake Off and made cupcakes influenced by Ollie's favourite superheros Incredible Hulk and Spiderman. 

Which meant green sponge and red icing. The green sponge didn't come out as hoped and the icing not as bright as I wanted but they actually taste nice the sponge is really soft and moist but the icing seems to have added flavour from the colouring which I'd have preferred it not to have. 

Finished Result: 

My friend Debbie also set her own challenge. 

Memorable occasion - picnics 

She has made a larger version of a Swiss roll. Looks fab. 

Swooning

Swooning over these fabulous pieces at Very

Shoe Box Boots
Reduced to just £18 from £45. Patent riding boots. These could be dressed up or down. I'd wear with my trusted leggings mostly but they would look great with some dresses I have.




Love Label Swing Coat
Reduced to £30 from £69, In lemon or light pink. 

I've not been a huge pastel fan before as never thought it suited me but i'm loving it at the moment.



 Which colour though Pink or Lemon?

Revamp A Wardrobe

Haven't done a want list for a while as I've been too stuck on healthy eating. 

I've found some great bargains from my favourite shop Select. Seems pastels are the way to go so picked some mint and blues. 

Lovely cool mint I think I would add a mint coloured vest to these. 

Pale blues, I'm loving these trousers and at £6 what a bargain. 

I always go back to my favourite colours though red, bright blue and black. Everything is under £10. 

Thinking of the warmer weather with these dresses how gorgeous are these and both under £10. 

You could change your whole wardrobe for £100 at select as fabulous bargains as some items just £5. 

Clean Eating Day 5

I Ooh Friday 13th, I'm not sure I can call my diet clean eating anymore as gone off track a little. 

Breakfast: Weetos with Almond Milk.

Says Weetos are packed full of vitamins but they don't taste healthy. 

Snack: Bad Bad Bad eek! Sweets and chocolate FAILED. And I had two cups of tea and throughly enjoyed them. 

Not sure this diet is for me as only lasted 2 full days. And today is a complete fail so I made a chocolate cake for Valentines Day. 

I have a healthy dinner but dessert will be this Chocolate cake and maybe alittle wine. 

Dinner: Fish Chargrills, Roasted Vegetables and Sweet Potatoe Wedges. Really enjoyed this dinner. 

Previous Posts:
Clean Day 1

Clean Day 2

Clean Day 3

Clean Day 4

Clean Eating Day 4

I had a rough night with one of my boys so I couldn't face too much of a breakfast this morning as I was just too tired. 

Breakfast: Banana and ginger tea 

Lunch: I had to take boys to Dr today and grandma came and treated us to lunch so I went alittle off course but as good as could be with Carrot and Corriander soup but had brown bread sandwich with salad and bacon (fat taken off). I also gave in to a cappuccino uh oh! 

Snack: Ginger tea with a handful of choc sticks (another not so clean eating item).

Dinner: Not really feeling the Clean Eating today with fish fingers and potatoes but I enjoyed it. 

Also had a dessert today which were Strawberries, blueberries with weight watchers yogurt and a mini meringue. 

Not a good day following the diet but it's still less than what I have been eating. 

Confession I did have a glass of wine.

Previous Posts:
Clean Day 1

Clean Day 2

Clean Day 3

Clean Eating Day 3

 


Well day 3 of a health kick and my All Day Energy book still hasn't arrived so

I'm not sure I'm doing this right or not. 

Breakfast: Apple and cinnamon porridge made with almond milk. Tasted pretty good better than water. 

Snack: Naked Bar Cocoa Orange. Not sure I would have this again it maybe healthy snack but you have to enjoy it otherwise don't think I'd bother. 

Lunch: Last nights left overs that I made for boys. Quorn mince, pasta and sweet and sour sauce. Hope this is okay to eat but not sure what else to have. 

Ginger Tea added to the mix. 

Snack: hunger pangs started and all I could think of was chocolate but I had Apple and a satsuma instead. 

Wasn't enough so had some nuts and goji berries aswell. 

Dinner: Leafy salad, spinach, tomato, cucumber, beetroot, salmon and alittle garlic sauce for flavour.

Felt alittle stressed this evening so I was easily convinced to have a glass of wine and it was enjoyed very much.

Previous Posts:
Clean Day 1

Clean Day 2

Clean Eating Day 2

Another day I can do this, feeling a little irritable and tired though so hopefully this clean eating will start making a difference.

Breakfast: Porridge Oats made with water and added blueberries. Herbal Tea.

It wasn't to bad considering I normally have it with milk. 

Snack: Elephant food nut mix that I started yesterday. 

Feeling alittle sick so didn't make a full lunch today. Maybe I'm being too healthy my body can't cope. 

Lunch: Flax seed bar, coconut and water.

Actually enjoyed the 9 bar very tasty. The coconut is pretty Moreish but not sure I should eat the whole tub as it's quite high in calories. How does that work, I'm not counting anything but even healthy food has calories. 

Snack: Lemon and Coriander Houmous with carrot sticks.

Dinner: Chilli Stir Fry with Quorn mince 

This was nice and had quite a kick to it. 

About 9pm though I started to feel hungry so out came the grapes. Can't give in to those malteasers in the cupboard I can't. 

Previous Posts:
Clean Day 1

Clean Eating Day 1

Monday 9th - Start The All-Day Energy Diet inspired by Yuri Elkaim but I actually haven't got the book yet.

Day 1: The day started with fruit 

Not too bad as a full stomach from yesterday's takeaway. I have to eat lots of fruit and veg on this diet but too much fruit bloats me so see how I go. 

My snack today will be this Elephant Food ha! It's actually quite nice. 

Lunch: spinach, tomatoes, cucumber, beetroot, avocado, pumpkin and sesame seeds with splash of olive oil and lemon. Sounds ultra healthy but all I wanted was an egg sandwich.  

Dinner: Mix of roasted veg and lemon coated fish. The fish was good as had so much flavour but veg was alittle boring. Started to feel annoyed as all this effort because you have to watch weight. I need to enjoy food.  

Started to feel hungry in the evening so had a Ginger herbal tea. 

Day 1 complete Thank Good.

Stop The Tracking

After a bad few weeks with my terrible diet and putting on over half a stone eek! 

Monday 9th is my clean eating kick off so no tea, coffee, chocolate, wine or any bad food basically. I've had take aways  galore this weekend and feel FAT. 

I'm not sure what has happened to me as I did so well on weight watchers getting to goal in 6 months. I had hick ups with holiday, Christmas and new year  but for one week after I did well and lost 2.5lb then I went completely off track just wanted to eat I don't know if it was down to stress, the weather being so cold or just lack of motivation but now I need to stop as I'm putting on roughly 3lb a week .

I am so fed up with tracking food and counting points every day I thought if I eat well I won't need to count as everything will be good that's going in my mouth (aim anyway).

Weight issues

I'm struggling again to eat right I had lost 2.5lb since the Christmas and New Year  binge but I put on 3lb after weigh in on 30th Jan which takes me back up to 10stone 13lb eek! This takes me back to August last year.

I'm so unmotivated at the moment even though in March we have a mini holiday by the sea and its my 34th birthday which is approx 5 weeks away. I need to get back on track as I know I will feel down otherwise. I've loved fitting in size 12 clothes and getting rid of those size 16s so why am I jeopardising all my hard work. 

Some days I wake thinking right I'm going to be good today which I do but by the end of the day it's all gone to pot. 

Yesterday I started my 7 minute app exercise and today I woke up very achy  which shows I haven't exercised for a while. The app prompts you each day so I will make myself do it as it is only 7 minutes. By the summer I will be pleased I did so got to keep it going.