I DID IT

The Letter

Oh my I finally sent my resignation letter to the company I have been with for five years it was posted on Saturday to get to them on Monday morning. 
I have been dreading in case I got a telephone call for the past two days but I checked my junk mail late last night and the boss confirmed he received my letter Monday. Not what I was expecting especially in my junk folder and to me this shows that this is probably what they hoped for anyway. It's so nice to feel wanted :(

As I've mentioned in previous posts I didn't feel welcomed when I went back last year after my first child so I wasn't going to put myself through that again as you know when you have out grown a company. 

Its a relief in so many ways that I never have to step foot in that office and see those people who snubbed me and made me feel horrible about myself ever again (hopefully).

So here's to being a stay at home mum for a bit :)

Christmas Come Early

For weeks I've been wanting to make christmas decorations in hope that possibly I could sell on my Kelly's Craft Box page. 

Yesterday I thought just do it as Ollie had fallen asleep and Joel was playing with toys and today I managed to make two more. 

What do you think?

I would like to make a couple more as Ollie is asking for Santa and I would like to make a gingerbread man also.

Only 74 more days to go :)

Taking Time Off Work

Well I've had 9 months off work on maternity that has now come to an end and I've hardly heard from my work place is that normal? 

Last conversation via phone was in February with my manager and then nothing for months I found out from my maternity cover a new manager was replacing the other which I knew was coming but didn't know when so I contacted them and finally I had an email back in June from the new manager and I said I'd like to be kept informed of changes as an office move was on the cards which was suppose to happen in August so I waited for confirmation but its  now October and no word. I know they have changed offices which is a lot further away from me as I checked on the website. Surely I should have had a letter or something to say they have moved and confirm the address as I am expected back in December and that move will take me at least an hour or more each way plus I have two children to think about. I'm shocked that I haven't been contacted in all this time. 

During my first maternity break I thought I hadn't really been informed much of changes in the company but I had a couple of KIT days so I could be shown new products and systems. During my time back at work last time it was very unwelcoming and people had changed due to promotions and made me feel like rubbish but what the hell are they doing to me now. I've been a reliable and loyal employee for 5 years and I get treated like I don't matter, what the hell has happened to the work force.

I defiantly think if you have time off to have a baby you are punished for it. Before I was pregnant the first time I was given opportunities but couldn't take up the offer as exams where around the time I was going to give birth and then I was lucky enough to take a year off to spend with my baby but going back to the same job well it wasn't the same so if you are career minded a year is too long as you are treated differently and for me the opportunities were lost. It was hell going back to the same place after a year out so what will it be like going back in December to the same company after a second year off. I know they have made more changes by making someone redundant after years of service and losing some departments completely, the whole company is different including attitudes. It still shocks me though as not even a word from the boss in all this time it makes me feel they don't want me back which is how I felt the whole time I did go back the last time. 

What will happen as its just 2 months until I should be going back and it feels me with dread.

Stress Head

Joel - 9 Months

I now have a 9 month old and a nearly 2 1/2 year old and my god life has become stressful.  

With weeks of sleepless nights that I posted about a month ago - Sleep Regression, which has settled down but I can see that the little guy has more teeth coming so I'm expecting it to come back. My toddler has been really awful lately to his brother and just will not listen I get a lot of 'NO don't want to', No mummy' or I get laughed at when I'm telling him off. It's so frustrating.

Ollie - 2 years

I'm starting to feel I need to go to work and be me as I am not getting any time to myself at the moment I am longing for a full day just by myself - no kids and no husband just me to be me would be lovely.


I feel guilty saying it sometimes but doesn't everyone need alone time.

Smile

 

It has been a tough week this week as nothing seemed to go right and I've had a bad back that just isn't helping but when I look at these two little boys it makes me smile.

I just wanted to share :) 

How Do You Get A Man To Help With Kids?

For weeks on end I've been saying I'm so tired I can't cope with being woken up so much during the night and that I need a break from kids as I feel like I'm glued to them 24/7. Never ever do I get a response I would love to hear like: 

'I'll get up you need the sleep'

'You go and rest, have a bath I'll look after them for an hour or two'

'I'll change the nappy, don't worry' 

'You sit down I'll make breakfast/lunch/dinner and feed the kids'

'You go out you deserve a break'

Why oh why is it always mummy's work. To break the routine even just once a week and not have to get up after a restless night of constant wake ups to make everyone breakfast and not ask for help would be a dream. 

 To change a nappy and not beg them to do it as its been the forth dirty nappy you have done that day.

To bath kids without being prompted that they need a bath. 

For all those daddy's that do not help with babies and older kids mummy's need a break once in a while so please just help out its not asking for much really as they are yours too.

Had Enough

Feeling little bit.......glum. Thinking back to the past and mistakes made. Like in 2006 we pulled out of a two bed flat that recently I keep thinking about and wished we had have gone ahead with it as we may have been much better off now. 

2007 we bought the house we are in now which has been an utter nightmare ever since and can't get out of it. 

When we got the keys and I walked into the house for the first time I wanted to cry as it was left in such a state and just thought 'what have we done'. At that point we didn't know the half of what was to come. Noisy neighbours actually let's say inconsiderate noisy neighbours at silly hours in the morning. I don't think I've had a decent nights sleep since moving into the house. I just want the nightmare to end as the stress and lack of sleep is taking its toll. 

Also the town we live in is depressing as the majority of the families live off benefits and will probably never get off their butts to work, I can't stand lazy people and people that have no respect for others. I've always worked and now we struggle to pay for a house we hate being in and are surrounded by weed smoking, lazy morons who have probably never stepped out of the town. I may sound snobby but I don't want my kids to grow up here and mix with these people who have no ambition in life other than to get drunk, high and laid.

I WANT OUT....but how?

No equity, no savings :(