What A Year

I haven't been writing my thoughts for sometime so today is a good day I think to reflect. What a year it has been with emotional ups and downs, family fall outs, child behaviour problems, first child starting school and a major stress head at the beginning of the year after coming off medication but I seem to be ending the year stressed but that is mainly due to kids and out of control eating so feel rubbish.

So not the best year but maybe I should look at positives I finally have free time insight to make things happen for myself. I just agreed to train to be an avon leader so I may finally see money and increase my confidence. If not with Avon my youngest son will be starting play group in January so I may see opportunities for a job. I have made some good friends so don't feel as lonely as I did. My husband would like to become a photographer so hopefully things will happen for him.
Ollie has learnt so much already at school he now knows the alphabet, write letters and numbers. Joel's speech has improved no end. So I hope for nicer times in 2016.

First to do is go on a major health kick to lose approx 14lb and feel better about me which will hopefully improve my mood so that would make kids and hubby happier.

Happy New Year xx

Two Kids and Me

I haven't posted in a while as it's been non-stop with kids being at home, really miss play group days so I've resorted in booking both boys into holiday club once a week for a breather as I wouldn't get one otherwise and the days seem long. Makes you realise how lonely you are :/

I've booked events at the library and children's centres to keep them occupied but with both it can prove difficult as the other week we went to a shark event and Ollie loved it as he got to make a shark and listen about shark facts whereas Joel the youngest decided to cry face down on the floor. So you can't please both.
We have done plenty of painting, park trips and tried meeting with other children but sometimes that ends in fighting so one is upset.

Last week my friend Alison moved back to the UK which I'm so happy about, we met yesterday to see how our boys would get on together as my oldest starts school in September (yay!) As does hers. All went well so fingers crossed they will be happy to see each other more.

Today we are waiting for my Avon delivery so we can make a pirate ship out of the boxes and if both behave I may even take them to a local soft play area. I do wish I had a car though as we are limited unless daddy has a day off.

Round 2 Results

Wow look at this 5lb off in 5 days amazing. 

Got to keep going as would love to be 10 stone.  

Measured myself and this time lost an inch off bust and half off thigh but seems like the rest of me pretty much the same as me last measurements.

Round 2 Boot Camp Day 5

Yay! Reached day 5 

Started the day with porridge with banana and a cup of tea. 

Walked into town and did my Avon rounds so gained few calories so treated myself and youngest son to an Asda lunch. I went for the healthy chicken veg salad and water I also had a bit of banana as Joel wouldn't finish it. 

Very tasty. 

I had a fab lolly this afternoon which is not on the menu but 89 calories. 

For dinner I had chicken breast with a rainbow of peppers and onion. 

Really bad and had a glass of wine and a couple of squares of chocolate tonight. 

Round 2 Boot Camp Day 4

Had a sneaky weigh in this morning and look now, down 3lb 2/4 in 3 days. Two more to go. 

I can't seem to eat as much in the morning so instead of toast with eggs for Breakfast as on the boot camp menu I had a tea cake which is just 164 calories and a cup of tea. 

Lunch is carrot and coriander soup then had a few grapes and a yogurt. 

 

Feeling so hungry today so gave in to some mini choc buttons eek! Feel so guilty now. 

Dinner Quorn steak with a mix of roasted vegetables. 

 

Felt hungry this evening so had a yogurt. 

Also started the July fitness challenge which I missed yesterday so had to stand and kneel for 2 minutes and also did side planks that was pretty much all the exercise I did. 

Round 2 Boot Camp Day 3

On the menu is eggs or omelette for breakfast but really can't face that this morning so going for porridge instead. 

First start was a cup of tea. 

For lunch I had the omelette which was 2 eggs, 2 mushrooms, onion and pepper with salad on side. 

I went round to a friends house with the boys so we all had an ice lolly but didn't give in to the sweets on offer (so hard).

Dinner I had the lunch menu which was sweet potato with beans and salad. So nice love sweet potato. I was also very hungry by this point. 

For dessert I had half a yogurt over strawberries. 

Round 2 Boot Camp Day 2

Started the day with porridge and a cup of tea. Simple but tasty and filling. 

Lunch was a low calorie cuppa soup and a banana. Felt hungry in the afternoon so had a bottle of water. 

I was going to have Quorn steak but hubby decided to buy a Hestons fish pie which wasn't on the menu to have potato  but still under 400 calories. It was pretty tasty with an added salad.

And dessert was a doughnut peach which is the closest I'll be getting to a doughnut. 

Ending the night with a green tea. 

Round 2 Boot Camp Day 1

After boot camp and a wedding I started being silly with food again so today I will start boot camp all over. I started eating better yesterday although I did have some handmade cake but that was the only bad thing as refused wine 3 times and Chocolate - this weight has to come off and only I can do it. 

I bought some weight watchers scales as best reviews. I know you shouldn't keep weighing yourself but I was 11st 7 1/4 yesterday so already lost some ha!

Following the NBS Boot Camp Diet again (see previous posts) I had a yogurt for breakfast and 2 eggs, 2 tomatoes and onion to make an omelette for lunch followed by a cup of green tea. 

Trying to keep busy as both my boys home and always ask for snacks which doesn't help me at all. Sticking to herbal tea mostly today to combat snack attacks. 

Dinner was Salmon with a mix of peppers, onion, tomato, courgette and sprinkle of ginger. 

I have had an ice lolly with my boys after dinner which isn't on the menu but just 39 calories. Which I should have bent off with my frantic cleaning earlier in the day.

Feeling Angry

I'm not sure what has happened to me this week but feel so angry and irritable with everything plus want to eat everything in sight but after last weeks lose I can't over do it as it would have been a waste of time but last night I had bubbly and chocolate. Today I keep eating biscuits as hubby left an opened packet in cupboard. 

Kids are annoying the hell out of me as I seem to speak and its ignored so I keep shouting so I am heard. 

I ordered a flower to put in my hair for tomorrow's wedding and it hasn't arrived which is so annoying. 

Feeling tired and so unmotivated, I just can't be bothered with anything today. Roll on bedtime. 

My rate over ha! Makes me feel better to write it down even if no one reads it. 

Good Boot Camp Results

Well after 5 days of the boot camp diet I lost an inch off waist, belly and hips which is amazing so pleased.

My bust stayed the same though unfortunately this is where I'd like to lose a little to feel more comfortable in certain tops as alittle tight. 

I'm not sure on what I exactly lost in lbs as I couldn't get to weighing scales but it was 3lb on day 3 so it must have been 1 or 2 more. 

I will be carrying on eating healthy with the odd treat here and there as I really want to feel comfortable in my clothes and not conscious of any over hang. 

Day 5 Food Boot Camp

Yay! Made it to the last day woohoo!

Today's menu 

So this morning I had porridge with a few blueberries and 2 cups of tea. 

Lunch was a weight watchers chicken soup which was a little late in the day as I'd been out completing chores so lots of walking today. 

Mid afternoon I had another tea and a herbal tea as was hungry. 

Dinner was salmon with courgettes, peppers and mushrooms which was lovely. 

Off the menu I did have an ice lolly but that's under 50 calories.

Still feeling hungry as I had plenty of exercise with walking and squats so had a Greek strawberry yogurt snack. 

Day 4 Food Boot Camp

Nearly at the end but it hasn't been too bad except for yesterday.

Today's menu: 

I'm switching breakfast and lunch again so breakfast was yogurt and a banana plus a cup of tea.

Lunch is 2 poached eggs, tomatoes, mushrooms and some beans that I didn't get to eat yesterday. I'm not too bothered about the bread so left it out. 

Had some pineapple mid afternoon as had some hunger pangs with a green tea. 

Dinner was chicken, asparagus and peppers which was actually pretty good even though no sauce. 

Then pineapple, melon, blueberries and a little meringue nest as needed something sweet. 

I think I had far too much fruit today as had a bit of a funny tummy after.

I've finished the day with a herbal tea. 

Day 3 Food Boot Camp

Wow half way through and it has been okay I have felt hungry like this morning but today started with Garcinia Cambogia supplement 30 minutes before  breakfast so had a tea.

Today's menu:

Breakfast is two boiled eggs as seemed like it was more than eating poached. 

Lunch was a little harder today as I was out with a friend. I tried to get some soup but they then said all gone typical so I only had a banana, plum and a bottle of water. So felt very hungry in the afternoon.

I did weigh myself and already lost 3lb I'm amazed but I have been on under 800 calories a day. 

Dinner was at my mother in laws who was very sweet and made a lovely salad with a mix of peppers, cucumber and salad leaves with Turkey slices which was lovely then an apricot yogurt for dessert. 

I've been pretty hungry today as I missed lunch so calculated my calories and it's only approx 534 which is far too low so I had a yogurt late evening. 

Day 2 Food Boot Camp

Couldn't wait for breakfast today so had porridge with a handful of blueberries and a cup of tea. Already feeling better for this as I think normally I have so much sugar in a day and wheat I'm less bloated.

Lunch is Tuscan bean soup and a banana that I had mid afternoon with a green tea. 

Dinner consisted of small chicken breast with a mountain of broccoli, cauliflower, peas and carrots plus a little spinach. I did miss having potato like the rest of the family but got through. 

I finished the day with a green tea, never drank so much green tea. 

Day 1 Food Boot Camp

Here we go I'm starting a 5 day boot camp as apparently you can lose 4-8lb in 5 days.

The rules are:

 And day 1 diet consists:

I switched breakfast and lunch around so for breakfast I had a muller light lemon Greek yogurt over blueberries, grapes and a Sharon fruit. I also had a cup of tea  and a green tea. 

Lunch is two poached eggs and two tomatoes. 

Dinner is a fish mix with red, yellow and green peppers and courgettes. Which was pretty yummy if I must say. I then had some strawberries and blueberries. 

Day 1 complete and feeling hungry so had a green tea. 

Oh my

Oh I'm gutted I weighed myself but it was after lunch and it said 11stone 9lb (very very sad face). So I'm overweight :(

What is most shocking is that only a month ago I was 5lb lighter so what the hell have I been eating. 

Well maybe because I have had a taste for Crisps, sweets, doughnuts, chocolate and ice cream. I'm so silly all that hard work down the drain. 

I should hopefully get my Garcinia and African mango capsules tomorrow so I will start those, cut out the rubbish and start to shred those pounds again. 

I'm off to have a green tea :/

Weight Update

After last year losing 2 stone with weight watchers I eased off and have put approx 12lb back on since Christmas. I've tried to get back on track by myself with weight watchers then tried Clean Eating but crumbled after about 3 days. I've been on and off each week with hardly any motivation using My Fitness Pal and lost then gained 2lb here and there. 

I have been doing fitness challenges on Facebook events during May and now June and I think that has helped tone arms alittle plus walking. 

My bras are till alittle tighter and my stomach looks big so still not happy. I came across a page https://www.facebook.com/nbslimming

Which looks very intriguing so I have purchased African Mango and Garcinia Capsules to try for a month as a major kickstart. Use the code thankyou20 for 20% off. It maybe another Clean 9 but it is cheaper and I need a kick up the bum. From what I have read you should see results quickly which would be fabulous as I have a wedding to go to on 20th June. 

Watch out for my slimming diary once again. 

Recent Days

I haven't written a post on here for a little while as I have been concentrating on my Facebook pages www.facebook.com/kellysaccessorybox

www.facebook.com/kellyscraftbox 

www.facebook.com/Kellysbeautybox 

And using my new blog mummylovesbeautiful.blogspot.com  writing mainly about beauty and fashion. 

Other than that it has been the usual ups and downs with the boys, Ollie turned four in April and had a phase of being a complete nightmare chatting back to me and refusing anything I asked of him. He even started kicking and hitting me which took me back alittle but in recent days he's calmed down and been nicer so I hope it lasts. 

Joel is generally easier but he has moments of constant moaning, whining at me and following me everywhere which is pretty draining. 

Kids aren't easy at all and I never imagine d how hard they would be. Dispite the shouting and stress they cause I do love them as we do have smiles throughout the day aswell :)

We've been invited to view Ollie's school that he starts in September which is probably why I've gone all soft as its a weird feeling him going to school as its an end to an era and the start of a new one and makes you think actually how quickly time does go. On the plus side it will make my days alittle easier just having the one child to tend to then when he gets his free funding in January I will have more of my own time again so I will need to think what will I do in the future which is exciting but scary at the same time. 

Times are changing.

New fashion

Just wanted to introduce my new beauty and fashion blog 

http://mummylovesbeautiful.blogspot.com. 

I used to have Mummy Beautiful before merging with this blog but after launching my Page Kelly's Accessory Box I thought it would be a great way to show off my products as well as getting back into my affordable outfit diary. 

I will also test out Avon products that is on another page Kelly's Beauty Box 

My pages:

www.facebook.com/kellysaccessorybox 

www.facebook.com/Kellysbeautybox 

Kelly's Accessory Box

I have decided to separate Kelly's Box Accessories and Handmade items into two separate pages and websites as I think together it gets a little muddled to what I actually do. 

Kelly's Box facebook page (www.facebook.com/kellyscraftbox) now has over 3000 likes so starting a fresh new page will be interesting. 

I also think another blog solely fashion and beauty is now a must so closing and merging Mummy's Beautiful blog page was probably a silly move but it's also nice to start over and get back into outfit posts and all things beauty. 

I have three pages now:

Kelly's Craft Box - Handmade Crafts & Acessories that are quirky and a little bit of fun.

Facebook: www.facebook.com/kellyscraftbox 

Website: kellysbox.tictail.com

Etsy: http://etsy.com/shop/KellysBox

Kelly's Accessory Box - Scarves, Clutch Bags and Statement Necklaces at great prices. 

Facebook: www.facebook.com/kellysaccessorybox 

Website: kellysaccessorybox.tictail.com

Kelly's Beauty Box -  My Avon page with offers, recommendations and online shop link for orders. 

 www.facebook.com/Kellysbeautybox  

Oh Blimey

Uh! I can't control myself, I start the day well with good intentions to be good with food then it goes out the window and I want to eat everything insight. I don't understand why I do it really.

I loved when I got to goal back in November and felt great being a comfortable size 12 but now I'm heading back to 14s and see the wobbly bits again. 

It's worse when stuck in the house on my own with my boys who then make me mad about something I can guarantee it so I head for food and it's always bad food. 

I just used my scales which are always wrong by approx 4/5lb and said 11stone 10lb it was 11stone 5lb other day. I know they aren't correct but it still gives me an idea eek! I definitely think I've put on a stone at least now. 

It's coming up to a year since I started weight watchers programme which was May 3rd. I still track most days but obviously haven't been good. It's actually been a rubbish year so far with food and me in general I need motivation. 

When Did Life Get Like This

Stress, stressed, ultimate stress head, this is me lately and I have no clue how to snap out of it. Today I have felt it badly and shouted at kids at the top of my voice until I actually felt dizzy. At the weekend it actually reduced me to tears. 

When did it start? 

Well I've kinda always had it, I guess most people do but nothing like it is now and I can only put it down to having children. 

Recent months have been hard as I feel so lost and need something myself to focus on otherwise my daily routine as I see it is me as a SLAVE. I get dragged out of bed being told change my bum, get me dressed, make me breakfast. Then the whole day goes on like this, fix this, I want a drink, I want a biscuit, I'm hungry etc etc. 

Still even at the ages they are I cannot go to the toilet in peace, if I have a shower I get peeped at or toys thrown in with me. 

If I sit down both clamper over me often spilling my drink on me. Meal times they are there staring at my plate and putting grubby hands all over my food.

I have now managed to get 3 hours on a Tuesday to me but I catch myself cleaning and still tidying up after kids. Yesterday I did go for a jog to release stress but it's back today. As said I shouted at the top of my voice because I am not listened to just laughed at and mocked. I realise these are kids are only 2 and nearly 4 but my god how they can really push you to the limits. 

At the moment I really can't wait for this time in my life to be over with its awful to say but I can't take much more of the stress I hate being this person I really do and I hate it even more that I really wanted this so why can't I enjoy it. As I write this one child thinks it funny to bang the safety gate continuously while the other encourages it. Urgh! How did life really get to this. It really isn't any fun. 

Wow Dress

 

Peacocks have one dress in two patterns. For just £2.99 wow may get both. Amazing value. 

Which do you prefer? Floral print or Palm print.

I love both but only managed to get the palm print as the shopping basket wouldn't add the other one but could be because out of stock already. 

New Start Follow Up

Monday I decided I will continue with Avon alittle longer and re-canvass any areas I've not been back to. I've tried to get in contact with an area manager but that's proving difficult. 

Kelly's Box I would like to sell off all the accessories and just sell handmade products as that is where I started so will focus on my Etsy shop once I get time and also a website.

Tuesday I started back on my weight watchers tracking. I'm also trying this detox for a bit of oomph! As I sure need it. 

First day went well just used all my 26 pro points and gained 8 pro points with walking. To really motivate myself I re-measured myself and took belly photos eek! How disgusting are these. 

I'm classed as overweight with these measurements: 

Hips 40"

Waist 35"

Belly 41"

Thigh 20"

Bust 39"

I'm not sure on my current weight but on 23.02.15 I weighed 11st 4lb. So 12lb to get to my Goal weight again and 18lb to reach ideal weight. Got to undo my mess. 

I have been looking at jobs and am updating my CV as I would like to go to an open day for Nationwide and hope they do flexi working hours while the boys aren't at school. 

Few positives to start me off :)

New Start

Right I'm now 34 as from 12th March so now is the time to make changes. I've been feeling alittle stuck in a rut the past few weeks so I need to motivate myself in making changes to make myself a happier more content person.

1.  I need to kick myself and lose the stone I have put on after all that hard work last year I cannot go backwards. 
2. I'm not really enjoying being at home so I need to decide what I am going to do from now. Choices: Re-train in something ready for when Ollie goes to school or Look for something part-time to keep my sanity for now and a little extra cash. 
3. Decide on what to do with my page Kelly's Box
4. Decide if I continue with Avon - Kelly's Beauty Box
5. Start exercising again. 
6. Find a passion 
7. Make an effort to meet new people.

That's a few to get me started I think, no.1 is a biggy as when I'm at a better weight I feel better about myself. I have come to a point that my clothes are feeling tighter, which makes me feel rubbish. I also need a new challenge as I'm so bored doing the same things at home chores are so dull and I've also come to a point I really don't want to play with kid toys anymore I need adult company and conversation.
I need something new to get my teeth into.

Half Price Sale At Kelly's Box

I'm having a big sale over at Kelly's Box, Scarves, Clutch Bags and Statement Necklaces all half price.

I'm having a clearout of all accessories so I can concentrate on my handmade items. That's what I originally wanted when I started Kelly's Box but got side tracked as I love accessories and thought it would be a good business move but it's taken over the handmade creativity.
 


Check Out all the wonderful accessories at
Kelly's Box at crazy prices

Supermarket Sale Bargains

Asda have a sale again yay! Love Asda clothes so bagged a biker jacket from £30 to £15. Couple of tops £6 from £12. And few little kids tops at £2 each. 

I got the striped blue and white top with necklace but couldn't decide on the red. 

I love the look of the heart dress which has been reduced to £12 but it looks awful on me. 

Loads of great offers at this sale but got to be lucky to find your size. For ages I wondered wether to by a dotty top which was £8 and I found it reduced to £4 and only two left in my size ha!

Love bargains 

Keep Eating

What the hell is happening to me I keep wanting bad food. Yesterday I craved a kit Kat but had 3 of them then wanted crisps and ended up eating 4 packets. Last night I munched on half an Easter egg with hubby. Today it's wispas I've had 4 eek! 

I can see in my face the weight gain. My stomach and tops of legs. I can't believe I've done this after all that hard work I'm just gaining lbs. I'm so unmotivated I'm just at a stand still I'm so unsure what to do next. 

I wish I could stop craving bad food as I'm tired, moody and feel terrible. 

Stressed or Mess

Oh my god the past few weeks have been my most stressful yet, kids, family, weight and basically me. 

I'm struggling with being at home it's fine with the younger son but my older son Ollie is too much he is 3 (4 in April) but it's like he's a teenager already he chats back at me, refuses to do things, hits, throws and bangs doors. He does not listen to a word I say my threats of taking toys or having no treats are just laughed at. Just had enough of it, I can't seem to cope as I just end up shouting louder and louder my neighbours must think I'm terrible, It's actually embarrassing.

I've got to the stage I can't even bare to be around him but I've had other stuff going on with me with coming off medication and going on a new contraceptive pill, having my first period since April 2012 so I think my hormones have gone into overdrive. I actually think I'm starting to see the stress signs in my face I look awful - Tired and haggard. My weight is creeping up after months of being so good. I'm a mess and I'm not sure what to do about it. 

Any advice would be appreciated. I need motivation, support network and some umph!  

Red Nose Day

Love Red Nose Day which is on 13th March this year. I always remember it at school as my birthday is 12th so almost always we had a mufty day on my birthday and other fun things.

 
I always tried to get my work involved aswell as its fun whilst making money for charity. 

Even though I'm at home I still like to do something so this year I'm joining in with the kids. At some point I will let them loose with my make up and make my face funny for money eek! May regret that one. 

We have our noses and car air freshener 

Today I have been inspired by the British  Bake Off and made cupcakes influenced by Ollie's favourite superheros Incredible Hulk and Spiderman. 

Which meant green sponge and red icing. The green sponge didn't come out as hoped and the icing not as bright as I wanted but they actually taste nice the sponge is really soft and moist but the icing seems to have added flavour from the colouring which I'd have preferred it not to have. 

Finished Result: 

My friend Debbie also set her own challenge. 

Memorable occasion - picnics 

She has made a larger version of a Swiss roll. Looks fab.